Watching your kid hit, kick, bite, headbutt, hair-pull, or in any way hurt another person is pretty much the worst.
Even worse than the worst: when your kid keeps doing all that crap for months, years even, despite doing every damn thing you can think of to get it to stop.
This was my kid, Jo. He dabbled in some hitting and kicking when he was 2. And as a 3- and 4-year-old, he developed a diverse and relentless repertoire of aggressions. Imagine spontaneous and seemingly unmotivated bursts of pre-school-sized cage fighting.
It drove me straight to My Wit’s End and left me there for a long, long time.
Jo is now 7. He’s a smart, emotional, kind, fiery, empathetic child. Truth be told, he still sometimes lashes out, mostly at his little brother or when he feels some deep injustice. But the Jo of today is Nothing like the psychopath I had imagined was in our future 3 years ago. That nightmare time of his 3rd and 4th year is OVER. Jo’s transformation is a miracle to me.
How did we get here?
I’ll tell you.
I kept him alive so his brain could develop.
I tried really, really hard (sometimes successfully!) not to shame him.
And I ranted and raved to a select a few friends who would listen without judging or giving me advice.
That’s pretty much it.
I know that’s not the miracle fix you want. Because going through this is hell, and when it’s happening, you just want to make it stop, instantly and forever.
I know this desperation because I’ve been there, imagined the worst, tried a million things, read more advice books than I ever should (this was the best one), and cried on countless shoulders.
I wish, back then, someone had sat me down on a soft chair in a warm room, wrapped a blanket around my shoulders, and told me these things:
- The hitting, kicking, biting, or whatever means literally nothing about who your child is as a person or who she is going to become.
- It also has nothing to do with how good of a parent you are. I repeat: nothing.
- Your kiddo is quite literally exploring a world of cause and effect “What will that kid do when I bang my hand on his shoulder like this?” He is also exploring ways to say “no” or “NO!!!!” or “I don’t like you.” He will learn other ways.
- Don’t take on the shame that other people rain down upon you and your kid. You’re both doing your effing best.
- Focus your energy on keeping people safe. In the meantime, her brain will continue developing into a brain that makes more socially acceptable choices. Really. It will.
- Make sure you’re clear with him that you cannot and won’t let him hurt other kids.
- Keep loving her and letting her know with your energy in those biting-hitting-kicking-hurting moments that you know she’s a good kid who doesn’t want to hurt other kids. (She may want the shovel now, or she may want that kid to give her some space, or she may be curious what happens when she bites his foot, but her primary goal is not to hurt other kids.)
- Vent to a select few who don’t judge but just listen about how horrible this all makes you feel. This is crucial, since there is no end to the humiliation and shaming and judgement that we parents of hitter-biter-kicker-hurters carry around. Venting let me offload all my horrible scary feelings, and I would emerge lighter and a little more ready for the next brawl.
- Circle back around and read #5 again. Good old fashioned brain development is on your side.
- I’ve been there, and it was awful. My son is older now and barely ever does that stuff any more. He is a delight. And your kid is too.